So I'm uber pissed today bc my dr doesn't hear me. I'm not much better, yes I'm not having 20 seizures a day but what you don't understand is any seizure is bad. Even if is just one or two I am not supposed to be having any! My meds are not controlling my seizures and I'm on a shitload of medicine!
I want the option of another opinion but he keeps shooting me down. I feel like this isn't going anywhere, that this isn't getting any better. I'm optimistic, but he keeps bringing me further and further down.
Treatment plans started out to be amazing now I'm being told there isn't anything right now.
I feel so defeated. I cannot live this way I refuse to!
This isn't how my life was mapped out for me. I'm too outgoing, too smart, and have way too much potential then to just sit and rot. And that's how I feel I've been living. No more! I'm sick an tired, I may not be able to change certain things but I can damn sure change myself. And that's exactly what I plan on doing. I'm tired of being told,"I can't", when I hear myself say"how can I".
I am so mad but I'm determined. I'm fighting and in the end I will win!
Cause that's how I shake, rattle and roll:)
Much Love
Holley
